Buck.

I'm hiding all the pain.
That I've Bottled up inside.
I can't believe nothings been the same.
Since you got taken away.

I know your looking down on me.
With every thing I have.

You always seemed to listen to me.
When I'd have too much to say.
Days seem to get brighter.
The more that I seem to pray.

I wish You hadn't left me.
But I still know your here.
I just can't believe that I can't see.
Everything that we shared was soo dear.

Sharing smiles every single day.
Like you wouldn't believe.
This was our way.
Before you decided too leave.

I imagined you by me.
Till the end of forever.
You were my little Brother.
As everyone would see.

You knew that I cared what happened too you.
But you didn't think that I would help.
I would do anything just to see you.
I would have stopped you the day before you left.

I'd have been there to listen.
I would have been there to hold you in my arms.
My heart that you left an impression.
For other people a siblings death would have been the end.

But I know deep inside.
That you and I my Angel.
Shall meet up in heaven.

You'll meet me with open arms.
As I walk threw heavens gates.
You'll hold me close and never let me go.
You'll show me around the magical kingdom.
You'll keep me safe.

But until this day comes my Brother.
I'll dream of you.
Like no other.
Thats all I'll do.
Till my heart finally finds you.
I miss you.











I was just sitting here at my computer thinking of my brother and looking at his webpage on VirtualMemorial.com search James Postawko thats him. And I wanted to write him something. You never truely know what means the world to you till you lose it. My brother ment everything too me. And a Premature death took him away from me. I never got to tell him goodbye and I never got to tell him how much I care. But i know that he can feel it while he flies up in the Sky. Because he was just that Smart. I know he's watching over my family every day. And I just can't wait till I can be with him again. I miss him soo much. You just don't understand.

Lauren.

I spent forever looking for you.
Not knowing what to do.
Hopeing your out there looking for me too.

Flying over the world looking all around.
I'll fly to where ever you tend to be.
Faster than the speed of Sound.
Because it's you that I need.

Knowing your supposed to be mine.
And I be yours.
Gives me forevers time.
Knowing it's you I adore.

I love you more then you'll ever know.
Because you see.
It'll take the end of Forever for it too show.
Thats the way it's supposed to be.

True love lasts a lifetime.
And forever and a day.
Luckily enough I've found mine.
And I have nothing left too say.

She's by my side day and Night.
Teaching me new things.
That I've lost in my sights.
She's taught me how to think.

She's taught me to care.
If I ever lost her.
I'd have nothing to bare.
She's take away the Hurt.

And she's taken away the Pain.
I can't think of anything to say.
I know nothing will be the same.
When she decides to go her way.

But I have one more thing.
Needed to be said.
You see I can't think.
And I just lay in my bed.

Every thought in my head.
Revolves around you.
I have one last thing that needs to be said.
And that is I love you...

Poem.

I'm just a simple Teenage girl.
With a Simple teenage Heart.
I care too much.
That my worlds falling apart.

I've lost my hope in you.
Because of every little thing.
You always seem to do.
I haven't been able to think.

Everything seems to be lost in reality.
I'm scared to be at home.
Everything seems to be a part of normality.
Knowing that once again I'm all alone.

I believed every word you ever said.
Not knowing that you were waiting for the right time.
To screw everything up in my head.
I thought this would be a crime.

Fly me up.
And let me fall.
I've had enough.
Of it all.

I trusted you.
And what do you do?
Your tear out my heart.
And rip my world apart.

You've left your mark.
All upon my skin.

I cut myself open.
To let the pain out.
The marks on my skin.
Are the things people worry about.

People know what you've done.
Killing me inside.
Things have to be undone.
So that things will be alright.